WTF

I cannot recall the last time I managed to wake up on the weekend at 1 without having had a party the previous night. So, here I was, giving stupefying glances at my watch, wishing it might as well have been half a day more before I woke up. I realized that it was the excess water I had before dozing off that shook my brains out of the sleep. The absence of any food in the house had already decided for me my next action for the day and since I wasnt in any mood what-so-ever to come back anytime soon, we left with a few other plans in store. After the brunch I finally managed to get myself the much awaited wristwatch I needed and then proceeded to watch the movie. The initial plan being any-goddammed-movie changed to harry potter which, due to unavailability resulted in us getting into guzarish. Ok, first things first. It was the strangest start of any movie I have been, EVER. To be precise, there were these two commercials on the screen, which I have no idea were even there, or for that matter were even made.
The first one starts with a huge banner saying 'Start reading' or something similar to that. Basically it alluded that one should read books. It was a bit surprising at first, but the thought of this turning into something worthy kept me watching, also, like I had any other choice. The next scene is some teenage girl reading a newspaper and a voice in the background saying 'lagta hai inhe samachar patra padhna accha lagta hai'. The girl keeps turning the pages at an alarming rate and within seconds, puts the thing down, looking pretty disinterested. The voice says 'to inki roochi isme nahi hai'. The girl walks into another room and picks up a few magazines lying there one by one and zooms past the pages, again nothing seems to hold her interest in them. The voice continues 'hume laga tha inhe patrikayen padhna accha lagta hoga, par inhe to ye bhi pasand nahi hai' in a netural, non-judgmental tone. The girl trods into another room and picks up some text book, and again the voice begins 'accha, to inhe apne vishay me roochi hai, aur ye khali vo hi kitaben padhti hai'. To his disappointment, the girl puts that one down too lackadaisically and walks away. Next scene shows her gallivanting around with her colleagues at a snack shop. The voice, now apparently disappointed, continues 'kya yeh samay ka uchit upyog hai. kya iss se humare bhavishya ko kuch fayada hoga. kitabon me dunia bhar ka gyan hota hai aur hume ye apna na chaiye......' and then he starts going on and on about the merits of reading books over fooling around and all this while showing clips of some dumbass looking chicks just staring at dictionaries. It took me and my friend a while to come back to our senses after what we had just witnessed. The one question that we asked each other was, why the bloody hell is this being shown in a cinema hall? Then it occurred to me.I am in gujrat and it would be better for me to just close my mind to any kind of analysis to this sort of input. But I really cant help wondering even now about the absurdness of that. Thats something you tell a 3 year old kid and the video, the same 3 year old could make a better one once he is told the importance of reading books. Yes, thats how bad it was.
Moving one, the next one was about some pan masala. We have all seen advertisements about that particular product and I think we can all recall distinctly that all those only and only talk about the wonderful taste and quality of their respective products. But not this one, no. This one ACTUALLY talked about the health merits of eating a pan masala. The ceo looking guy scoops a spoonful of it in his trap and exclaims enthusiastically that this is what you wanted and this is what we delivered. This thing stands out in taste and has been made from some herbs and stuff which ensures that your breath stays fresh and you experience a everlasting taste, without, in any way, harming your body. And he goes on with this for about half a minute and then they repeat the ad which helped me to become absolutely sure of what I had just heard. I cant actually compare the ludicrousness of this and the one discussed earlier but this was something I had never seen before.
Anyways, after this, thankfully, the movie started. The first 15 minutes were more than sufficient to to realize that this wasnt something I was looking for. It was a piece of good acting, that I have to admit but it was wrapped around a story in which people were weeping, whining, dying in a very sombre environment. So after a couple of hours we were glad to come out and in desperate need for some good-old-senseless-action-with-special-effects and nothing better than harry potter seemed to match the need. Only to find out that the rest of the shows for the evening were sold out.
Came out, and it was raining. In any normal place, one can observe at least half a dozen rickshaws outside any multiplex or a mall and when it rains usually the number increases because of the rise in demand, or in worse case, at least remains the same. It was un-fucking-believable that there wasnt a single one of those outside that supposedly one of the biggest multiplexes in baroda. We had to wait for about 20 minutes to get one. Again I cursed this place a million times and was glad to be back home. After the awesome day, there was no enthusiasm left for going out for dinner and hence a banana and a pack of peanuts it was. Really hoping to get a better, not-in-baroda weekend next time around but all depends on how this weeks goes. May the force be with me :P

Conspiracy, is it

After exactly one month of bidding this place a final(supposedly) farewell and swearing on my life never to come back again, I am back. Judging by my experiences and particularly this one I would like to modify the following quote by Coelho “When you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it.” to "Even when you dont want something, all the universe can conspire in thrusting it on you". The 'can' in mine elucidates the scarcity of occurrence of any such event but when it does happen, there is rarely any way out. Every one of us, at some point in our live's, have come across such a situation when we know deep in our conscience that we are going to land up in an unwanted position but we keep praying and hoping that things things might turn otherwise only to realize that they never do. The thought that out of a billion possibilities that we could think of as to how the situation could've been avoided, the only one that did run the correct course was the one which led us straight towards it, does keep us perplexed for a while, at least. If we could think of so many ways out, then why the hell did we get screwed up?! I say because it really does not matter what u decide, not decide, do or not do after you are at the point of hearing the verdict because what you have done has already decided the path. The decision has already been made. If its for you, then you know it and if its against you, then you hope that its for you; the point being, you know. So the conspiracy being mentioned in both the sentences becomes a conditional conspiracy. The factor which decides the condition being true or false is the choice of realization. Some of us do realize the situation well and acquiesce to it while others,mostly, continue to hold with only the assumptions which make them feel better. It is for the latter sorts the result comes as a surprise and the thought of having been victimized sinks in. I would treat the statement by Coelho the same way. If anyone has done his part for achieving a goal then its not the conspiring universe who let him get there, its simply him. If he fails, then either he can blame the universe in failing to come up with a working conspiracy or he can choose to realize the failure and start working again after taking positive lessons from the previous failure. The better the planning , the less the chance of going down. Of courses, there no such thing as error free planning but one can always give be thorough and give attention to the minutest details. Its our understanding of our actions which makes their outcome seem like either a conspiracy or a consequence.

Procrastination

Well, as far as writing everyday was concerned, that idea went a bit haywire as one can clearly deduce from the differences in dates between this and the previous post. The gap apparently turned into a few weeks and I have the proper excuses for derailing from my anticipated path, but I rather not get into that, both for the reader's(if any :P ) sake and mine.
I did not realize before naming this post that the title presents a larger picture than what I intended it for. Now that I have my degree after my share of bad luck, bunch of unnecessary trips, worthless arguments with even worthless people, pickle of situations and finally (icing on the cake) a presentation which will make me doubt forever the academic credibility of every person from my department, I can afford to retrospect what landed me into the predicament I was in, without, for once, feeling sorry about it. What led to this situation, from my side, was a measly case of procrastination. So I suppose I have learnt my share of lesson(s) from that fault of mine and after beginning this post, suddenly all those times were refreshed for a while.
Here I am now, stuck in Delhi for past three days, though with all the great food and rest I am having I cant actually call it being stuck but since I was supposed to be present someplace else, hard at work, I will stick to defining my current state as being 'stuck'. Again for this same reason, that work is being delayed and consequently is being delayed the time at which I get back home which, in turn, further increases the duration after which I start doing any relevant work. Obviously what I am doing right now is relevant, but more so for the company. As far as I am concerned, I realized that if I have to go through with this particular piece of assignment without tearing my hair apart, or rather without getting fast-forward hair loss due to hypertension, then I have to take it strictly as an experience and try to learn everything from it which is NOT related to what I am doing. The concept might not sink in at first, but anyone who decides to go his own way, bearing strong perceptions of his future workplace, and finds out the reality being quite the opposite, will understand exactly what I mean. I realize that no one intended it to be like this and it was an unexpected turn of events which led to this conclusion. I dont, and frankly, cant blame anyone for this as its my job to do what is being expected out of me. The only thing that was making me so fidgety, which I managed to realize after quite a time, was that I was in a turmoil between what I wanted and what I had and was not accepting the fact that I was too precariously placed in the situation I was in to have any choice whatsoever. Only after I let that thought percolate inside me it occurred to me that there are some things that one must do, even if they dont follow the same trail as one expected them to, not because anything is being forced upon him, but because that is the reality but because that is what will happen for the rest of his life. The only way that I have found out of this is to work it out. Only when one is on the dictating terms can he be able to choose and do things to his liking and if he is not willing to earn that luxury for himself, he better learn to make peace with his conscience and bury this reality deep within him. As for me, I am yet to finish of that piece of 'work' I was assigned and I am hoping to conclude it for good, soon. What I have decided for me after pondering over the dilemma I mentioned above, I will keep to myself for the time being and in case it does not work out, will be more than glad to share my experiences.
For the short term plans, I just want to be able to stick to the little deadlines and schedules that I set for myself. I think had too much to write and that's why I swayed quite a bit from the topic and, in the process, might have also missed some relevant points I had decided to put forward but there's always a next day and I will try not to disappoint me henceforth.
Adios

A new beginning

Ok first of all, i'm not trying to get into star wars mood or anything but yes, its like starting something I used to like and do a lot some years back. I dont know when and how the habit slowly drifted away but lately I realized that I need to start doing this again. It would be better that I dont ponder too much on factors responsible for the aforementioned realization. The thing that I do want to stick to is to write at least a couple of pages per day just to stay in touch with the process of writing. Obviously I dont intend to do this in a my-dear-diary way but rather a place where I am able to vent out my opinions on any subject dwelling on my mind and to try to make more sense out of it. I think that topics that come out this way can be quite abstract and more often than not, can go haywire but I guess that is the whole point of doing this. In the due course of our lives, we dont really get any time or opportunity to just talk about anything that crosses our mind and now that I recall it, I actually used to like doing this for this precise reason. Not that any conversation really happens, but for me, its more of gradually making my thought process more lucid for myself. Anyways, its just the start, and hopefully I will be able to come up with a new thought to put forward each day.
Adios